I wonder if you still think about me

無題

即使外表包裝得如此完美.
但盒內卻放了一個爛蘋果.

雖然如此，我還是希望你會對我直接一點。

我怕被受傷害，但便害怕被騙。

騙到全世界, 卻騙不到自己.

原來我非不快樂只我一人未發覺.

最近的壓力比平時多了點，

好多事都好像突然間出現，

對於我這個什麼都擔心的，

壓逼感都把我逼到有點瘋。

突然有種很想出走的感覺，

拋下身邊的一切一切束縛，

到一個可以呼吸的新世界，

我說是真正的呼吸著空氣，

不是不知道為啥而喘著氣。

aiiya.

you know that feeling when you think you are right all along but all of a sudden something just hits you and you look back and realize that you've been wrong the whole time?

yea, it sucks.

I've always thought that among my group of friends i'm one of the few that is more 識諗..mature in a sense. I've always been a good listener, always give people advice of my opinions. But when i actually think back, i am nothing but a big hippocrate. I tell my friends never look down on themselves and don't need to be jealous of their friends because they are not any better than them..I am the one that have low ass self-esteem and always have the idea of "i suck" in my mind; I tell my friends to stop talking to douche bags..but I am the one who have no control and resistance to break it off; I tell my friends to never lose faith..but i am the one who gives up so quickly..
So hippocratical eh? haha I say more than I do. I know my faults, and what i should do, but i just can't do it.

Right now i'm procrastinating on my english project..to stalk people on facebook hahaha
damn..it's gonna be another no sleep night!

2011.

對上一篇差不多是一年前的事了.

嗯..這一年發生了蠻多的事的.

報了大學, 學車, 跟他分手了又復合, 還有點兒掛念著另一個他..
第一次因為學校壓力而哭, 第一次很想家..
還有下星期的PROM, EXAM, GRAD..

好像很多事要顧慮, 沒有什麼空閒時間休息.
有時候還要跟那個自我中心的他吵架;
真的有點兒累了..

其實分手的念頭已經出現了一段時間,
只是有點兒不忍心,
加上還未有一個好的原因去跟他說.
(其實他大概也猜到了吧, 對他的態度根本是180度大轉變)
唉.
最近跟友人談起自己,
才發現自己性格很古怪,

三心兩意, 三分鍾熱度, 好奇, 執著, 不喜歡容易得到的, 得到了便失去所有興趣, 五時花六時變, 不喜歡千篇一律的人等等等等..

其實跟我相處有點難吧:P 哈哈

現在掛念神神秘秘的那個, 從上年都應該知道沒有可能吧, 他只是當我一個智商未全的一個小妹妹, 一個普通到不能再普通的朋友.
這個....應該也只是三分鐘熱度吧..(i hope so :S)

對..男孩子真的很可惡,

有時真的希望把他們通通變做女孩子, world peace :<

算了, 現在還有很多其他比他們重要的事等著我去做.
做人總不能活在自己虛構的想像當中吧.
somethings just let them happen, surprises will happen :)
hold your faith kristie! hehee

I'm actually looking forward to grad,
I'll soon be out of highschool!
Can you believe it? It's been four years already,
I've lived in this house with my aunt for four whole years.
It seems like it was only yesterday that I step foot on this house for the first time..
haha..times goes by too quickly :P I hope I didn't miss anything

Although I complain about everything a lot, I'm pretty sure I'm going to miss this next year.
Next year will be a whole new start, I will have to be dependent by myself.
No one is going to take care of me, no one is going to bug me to go study,
no one will cook for me, no one will ground me ahhaha :P
Part of me is very excited, but I'm still very nervous..
hope I will survive! and i hope i can keep in touch with all my biffss :)
it's pretty sad to think about how next year i won't be talking to most of my friends now,
BUT! let's not lose hope! true friends will be friends forever :)

gogogo!

:>

機會.

哈哈哈.....

17了,
應該去嘗試不同的事.
我真的希望我不會對今次的決定而後悔.
................
哈哈, 強逼自己喜歡的感覺真的不太好.
i hope it gets better :)

SHCC GRADUATION DINNER.
個個都好靚,
原來個個一打扮起黎真係好唔同.
個個都有靚既一面.
平時以為很普通,樣子沒有什麼特別的女生,
原來只要肯打扮,
可以搖身一變,
變成天鵝 (L)
我真係好開心哈哈哈

:@

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